Alas i'm ready to go back home after rigorously participating in the mentoring and monitoring capacity building that spanned 5 days. I'm fortified but i'm a bit apprehensive about the magnitude of work ahead. I'm a worksmith,mind you. But i'v decided to choose my battles. I don't want to break down again. I don't want to suffer from burnout. So i'm torn apart,between my enthusiasm and maybe tokenism. I hear a voice telling me to place this responsibility on my shoulders. But the brave man in me has often placed it on the head. I think i'll do the right thing but on a reasonable pace. With me turning 29 in a few days from now,I know now that i'm not getting young. Many thoughts begging for attention. Marriage. Child bearing. Career enhancement. Family life. Recreation . All these seem to stir a role confusion in my mind. And i don't want to allow anyone define my joy. I need to do all these,but how prepared emotionally is this torn heart? Time,not I will tell!
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